那就是我对你撒过唯一的一个谎。
这个谎，我一撒就撒了一年。


不过自从你告诉我的那一刻开始，
这个谎，我的心情，我的感觉。。。
就再也不重要了，对吧？　：）


不用担心我，我好好的。
我本来就是一个坚强的人。
你是我唯一依赖过的一个人，谢谢你。：）


我们之前从来就没什么，不过有很多开心的事。
我其实是认识你过后，才变得更开朗的，你知道么？


认识你，是一件很开心的事。


你不知道，你伤心的时候，我有多难过。
其实你不开心的时候，我隐约感觉得到。。。
只是我永远都不了解你。。不过我怎么尝试都一样。
我知道你不会愿意让我知道。可是看着你难过我又不知道怎么办。
我会觉得你越来越远，然后就一个人掉眼泪。

所以你一定要很开心，不要再难过了，好不好？
要开心哦。　：）

我没事，死不了。

我记得我做过一个梦。
梦里的你哭了。


我从来没看过你哭。
我甚至，从来没看过你真正开心的笑。


你哭了。
你哭着告诉我，我不珍惜你。
你说，你付出没有回报。我不懂得珍惜。


我哭了。
我哭着告诉你，不是这样的。
不是这样的。
然后说出了连我醒着的时候也不曾想过的原因。


我哭着说：
“我看不清你。。。我的心就像坐过山车一样忽上忽下，突然冲上了云霄，又突然毫无预警的，没有断层就直接掉到深渊里去了。。。你到底怎么看我？这到底。。。代表什么？我。。。我看不清你。”


后来我哭着一只求你相信我，你无动于衷，只是冷冷的看着我。


然后窗口透过一丝曙光。
我从梦里回来了。
伸手轻轻地擦一下脸颊。
很惊奇的，没有泪。


眼睛干干的，流不出泪水。
胸口却有种沉重的感觉，像是一个做错事的小孩等待着惩罚一样。
我翻了个身，想了想刚才的梦境。


心里突然有个小小的声音问：
“我要失去你了么。。？”


把脸埋进枕头里。
清晨梦醒的空虚感催促着囤积了一整夜的泪水。
在阳光和情绪之间的缝隙， 倾泻。


原来是这么回事儿，呵呵。







你知不知道我一直以来有个很小又很大的愿望。














我想要很用力，很用力的让你开心。
然后看到你真正地，为我笑一次。
没有敷衍，真正开心的微笑一次。

一次就好。

Watched Eclipse with the girls.
I'm always, somehow, in a depressed mood when I watch Twilight movies.
I don't know why.
= =
But anyway.
Idk why but in the movies, Jacob's love for Bella is always more believable than Edward. @_@
At least that's how i feel. From the way Edward acts, I really can't feel the "love" or whatever feeling he was supposed to have. o.O
(Even though people said : Rob's acting skill is better than Taylor's godawful acting skills)
But still, somehow it looks more believable to me.




这个世界有太多人等着你去照顾，太多人等待你的陪伴，太多人需要你关心。
我又有什么特别呢，当然没有，我只是万千人们之中比较幸运的一个而已。
或许这会让我越来越贪心，或许我会开始奢望，开始期待，然后落空。
因为即使外人眼里看见的是另一幅景象。
我们彼此都清楚这其实不过是一个美好的幻觉。
温暖，美好得会让人心碎。
却也只是这样而已。

虽然我只是茫茫人海中的一个。
还是很开心有那么一点点地幸运，站在这个位子上。
十六、七、八岁的人果然爱憧憬爱幻想，不切实际的梦就这样横跨了多少个寂寞的夜晚。
是不是有点傻呢。
明知道没有结局的一出戏，却还是愿意一个人在阴影中对着回声一唱一和。
然后幻想
有一天，奇迹会发生。

其实 我明白 我没那么重要。
少了那么一个我 你真的会难过么。。？

年轻总有太多的无奈，呵呵。
太多来不及追的梦
太多追得趴下来也勾不着的梦

说什么梦呢
其实你知不知道 我很小的时候 就幻想过你的影子
那个人 惊奇的 居然有着和你同样的名字
后来大一点了 开始幻想这样的情节
那么久的梦了呀。
大了 都忘了
直到有一天 这些都在无意中一一实现了
当初的梦却早已忘得一干二净。
然后在很久很久以后的日子
某个午后
突然记起
然后感慨 流泪
原来已经没什么好奢求
原来走到现在的缘分已经得来不易。
是时候感恩了。
真的没什么资格再奢求。

其实明明眨一眨眼就可以醒来。
却一直自我欺骗的继续沉睡。
不是醒不来，而是不愿醒。


讽刺啊。
不怨谁，有时候 人们有了足够的缘分相遇
足够的缘分相识
足够的缘分相爱

却也仅仅是这样而已。
这样而已。
而我 也只是这样而已啊。

To honey >D :
Feels like haven't talk to you for a while D:
Like weeks :/
And msn is not counted. =3=

haha yeap >3< table =" =" style="color: rgb(102, 102, 102);">Bring back Michael Jackson, We give you Justin Bieber.




So damn bad la these people = =
He might be overrated but he's a human = = and a kid like us~
Why curse like that? lol. screw you = =

We're going out on Saturday.
There were supposed to be like, 10 ++ people but then...
*ahem*, apparently there was some drama and all ~_~
And people backing out~

In the end it's just 7 of us.
Whatever.

I just want to get out and walk around instead of rotting at home.
:/
But it's really not that fun this way. D:



























And you can never see the tears behind those smiles. Each and every one of them.

Disappointed of losing something that you never really had in the first place.


Maybe the reason that you keep letting me down, is that because you never know how much it means to me?

Haha, maybe. ;)



:)
Have a nice day.

xoxo...

So i created a blogger template as an example to show my cousin how to make one. :D
And it turned out pretty good, so I put it on www.blogskins.com for people to use. :D




http://www.blogskins.com/info/344170/


LOOK LOOK! :D
Preview it, it looks nice. >3<

Kidding. I can sing it blindfolded, anyway. :P

Anyways. Updates updates. >3<

Alrighty so what I've been doing for days? *thinks*
Lets start with friday. :D

Hari Bicara Akademik, fantastic. Not.
It's actually kind of boring for me, I went back before it even started. :/
( It's a good thing. ;) )
The results were okie :D The teacher didn't say anything about me, none of them actually say any truth about me anyway. ( She's a quiet little girl etc etc. )

Went home and slept for like, few hours. From 7.30-11.00. (Yes my maths is that bad. :/ )

I've been making a lot of pictures lately. xD I owe my friends A LOT of pictures especially icons ( three more sets to make T_T ), not to mention the requests I got from people.

So it kind of pushed me to make all these junkies.


Pix on the way. :)


ICONS. :) I think it looks good. >3


Aw so cute, these make a pair. xD For couples/friends , as a gift for my friends who were having a virtual wedding on the forum xD For fun anyway.





ICONS. :D
Please forgive me for the bad grammar/english. = =
Sometimes you just translate them so they look good on a picture. xD



Anime.